Millions Of Appointments

Doctors waiting rooms. Full of silence, with the odd cough or sneeze. People waiting to get help from their GP's. But with me, I have been seeking help for almost two years, and still. Nothing... I have been to see a doctor, consultant, specialist or surgeon every other week since this all began. 

I have been told many a diagnosis and it has got to the point where i don't know what to believe anymore. It seems that all doctors do is pass the buck to someone else and throw different cocktails of pills at me, hoping that will cure it. But it doesn't. I have spilled my heart out to many doctors, sobbing about the fact that my life is ruined by an invisable illness that no one can diagnose, but they don't even bat an eyelid. My biggest wish is that someone, anyone would help me. 

I have been taken to the hospital in an ambulance, the paramedics worried about me, and then i get to A&E and the doctors have a five minute talk with me, no other tests, they give me some medication and send me home. They don't seem to realise that I have a life that is being affected by this, and I cannot go about my daily life. but they see me as a piece of meat and not a person with feeling. 

So I would like to write an open letter to all the people that have 'tried' to help me, or any other person that could help me in the future. 

Dear anyone listening,
I have been living with an invisable illness for almost two years. I need to tell you something. I am a living person with feelings and asperations. But with no one else helping me, I cannot live a life like a normal person. I am 21, I should be having fun and making the most of my life, but all I can do is sit at home, driving myself crazy. In constant agony, with no one to help me. I just want people to understand, that just because you cannot see that I am in pain, doesn't mean that I am not suffering. All I wish is that all the people that pushed me to the side lines, could have my illness for one week, and understand how crippling all of this is. 
I really hope someone could help me. 

Sorry for the rant, most days I feel that I need to get things off my chest.