A Little Rant...

Hey guys, I know I usually don't post on a Saturday night/ Sunday morning, but I just have a lot on my mind and I thought I would share it with you...

So obviously it's been just over two weeks since I got diagnosed with Fibro, but I am finding it really hard to come to grips with the diagnosis. I think it has just knocked me for six, and has truly scared me. I am still figuring out things I can do to change my life for the better. The next month or so is going to be a little hard on my system. I am moving back into my parent's house for a month, don't worry me and my husband are fine, he is going away on exercise, and with my illness, my family don't want me to be alone in the house. We are moving back to Thatcham at the beginning of July, and so I will be going straight from my parent's house to my new house, which is exciting. But I know it will take a lot out of me.

I cannot wait to see my family and my close friends. They are my life, along with my husband. Even though I talk to them every day, not being able to be there next to them, to hug them and to smell their perfume is really difficult. I have a really close relationship with my family, and everything about them is perfect. I am adopting the thought that me moving will be the start of a new chapter. I have already made plans to go swimming once a week with my grandad, which is great. He is a great motivator and he will make sure I get my butt out of bed and in the pool. I have also made so many plans with my best friend Adel. I want to see her as much as possible, as I haven't been able to see her as much as I want in about a year! I also want to make sure that I see all my close friends as much as possible.

The thing that is annoying me at the moment, is the fact that my body is unable to shut off at night-time. I will be so tired during the day, but around 10-11pm I will not be able to fall asleep. I will just end up laying in bed tossing and turning, and obviously don't want to wake my husband, so I end up going downstairs. Before I know it, it is 4am. Plus to add to my annoyance at the moment I have 4 mosquito bites on my leg, and it is so annoying and painful.

I'm sure in time everything will get better but at the moment I am just at a bit of a downer. I hope you have had a lovely weekend and enjoy every day as it comes, a quote my mother used to tell me daily.