Things I hate about my condition

As you may know I have Fibromyalgia, I have had it for almost two years. But it's still a rollercoaster of a journey. I'm in a bit of a low mood right now so I thought I would make a list of the things I hate about having Fibro. 

Being constantly in pain

For the last 2 1/2 years since I damaged my back. I have not had a day when I'm not in pain. I think if I woke up without pain, I would think I was dead. Some days I can get used to the pain, but some days the pain is so great I can barely move. For weeks on end I might not leave my house. In short, it's bloody horrible! 

Being tired all the time 

Another 'lovely' symptom of Fibro is constant fatigue. Again some days I can handle it, and I can go about my daily life. But some days I get out of bed and sit on the sofa, and my brain and body will not be able to work properly and I would just feel like I'm going to pass out 24/7. I hate it so much, because I feel like I can't love my life properly. 

Being dizzy/walking into things

I'm not sure if it's a symptom of my illness, or a side effect from the medication I take, but I am dizzy most of the time, and I keep walking into things. I think my brain cannot comprehend distances. The amount of times I walk into doors or stub my toe on the edge of things. Also the dizziness is horrible. Sometime so feel like I'm going to pass out for days, I have fallen down the stairs a few times and I have to sit down to stop myself from passing out. 

Nausea and headaches 

I get horrible headaches about 3 days a week, but sometimes more. It can range from a slight ache in my head and neck to feeling like my eyes are going to explode and I cannot move my neck. Sometimes I feel so sick I won't eat, I have a phobia of being sick, so even feeling sick can trigger my anxiety. Which is pretty bad! 

Anxiety 

Since I have been ill, my anxiety has gone through the roof to the point I was too scared to leave the house alone. I am going through therapy, and it is helping. But it was so bad every little things would trigger my anxiety and I have had a good few panic attacks, which I have never had before. 

Not living my life

Before I was ill I had a great life, I had a great job, an awesome relationship and great friends and family. But when I got ill my life changed. I can't do things a normal 22 year old does like go on nights out and spend hours shopping and tidying the house. Sometimes this aspect gets me really down. I lost two jobs because of this stupid illness... I would love to work and have a great social life. Don't get me wrong I have amazing family and friends who take the time to understand my condition and help me out when they can, but I would love to be able to do things for myself once in a while.

Sorry for being depressing, but I just needed to get this off my chest. And I would also like others to know the things I'm going through. 

Thanks for reading and I will post again soon!